blurry blurtings
BLURRY BLURTINGS a random thought amidst the mix of all things mundane it passes by and I entertain it never been one to resist its temptation but I guess this one brings that feeling you know? the one where something rises to your throat; breathing, is it one in, you out? at that second nothing adds up memories feel hazy I am forced to fight the urge to scream not because it makes me look weak or crazy but because it wouldn't make the crippling anxiety vanish. how can I be shut down with temporary relief when everything about the half a year gone by is etched into my mind like those sweet engraved gifts you give to someone you cherish. somehow the scene shifts the corner of my lips fights gravity because it is reminded of the taste of precious moments the ones that would make little to no sense to an outsider because they look at pain with pity that's alright because I know I never did collect the energy to paint that portrait to let the world know the colors I felt. will it